Dear My 9 Years Fandom...
I still remember it like it was yesterday...
Helena was big hit on MTV. Gerard Way's long-black hair, the dancing female corps in her funeral. I was mesmerized. I love their music, I love their music video, I love their concept. The next day at school I got excited talking about the video with my best friend. I said "The vocalist IS awesome! I love him so much!"
Soon after, I heard much more about this band, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. I got no internet connection back on the old days, so I was just following their news on TV or magazines. I consider myself as lucky by the time I found their another songs like I'm Not Okay, The Ghost of You. Added to my playlist, with no hesitation. This, gonna be my favorite band, said the 10 years old me.
Yes. I just an 10 years old girl by that days...
When I got accepted in Junior High School, they surprised me again. My Chemical Romance's back with Welcome To The Black Parade. It was total ALL KILL. It's everywhere, in every TV music's station, in every radio chart, and even in everyone's hums. And I am, of course, get crazy about it myself. I remember when I was rushing to go the music store near my house and grab the CD. Can't helped but play it all day long, all night long.
The way Gerard's saying "Your memory will carry on...", how Ray, Frank, Mikey, and Bob's play behind. Their music is brilliant. I can't help but addicted. Their song was a beautiful influence for a 13 years old teenage girl like me, every time I got bad day and found my self singing "They said all teenagers scare, the living shit out of me..."
I am healed. Their song healed me. I spent my youth with their songs.
In the middle of that year, they're coming to Jakarta, the capital city of my country, Indonesia. I remembered it was near the Ied that year and I still got few days of holidays left. I did really wanted to see the concert, to see my favorite band. But pity, I was so young back then. My mum told me that I am too young to go to see some concert like that and forbid me to go. I was so sad, but I made promise to myself that I will see their concert. I will see them live, with my eyes. Someday.
I was just a 13 years old girl that own the best band's influence.
I just sitting on my car while tweeting in the middle of my first semester of my eleventh grade when suddenly the radio's playing the newest single of them, Na Na Na. I found it kinda different from their songs, but it quite lovely and colorful. THEY'RE BACK! And I got excited once again. My Grandma bought me the newest album of them, Danger Days, The True Lives of The Fabulous Killjoys as my birthday present. I listen to it, watch the whole videos, and I go falling in love again. Party Poison, Kobra Kid, Jet Star, Fun Choul. They're never fail to surprised me. Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back, Summertime, S C A R E C R O W, The Only Hope for Me It's You. They're just beyond amazing.
9 years has just passed...
Now, I'm a college girl, still holding they're total influence, heartbroken, crying, and suffering.
They decided to split...
I just on tears right now. I can't tell what's really on my mind after hearing the news. It was so fast. Until now, I just can't believe that this is really happening. Gerard did wrote a beautiful letter on his twitter account, but I can make my self reading those letter. I am so sad, my mind refuse to believe that the news is true.
Since I am bad with goodbyes. I refuse to let this be one. But I will leave you with one last thing-
My Chemical Romance is done. But it can never die. It is alive in me, in the guys, and it is alive inside all of you. I always knew that, and I think you did too.
Because it is not a band- it is an idea.
Love,Gerard
Gerard Arthur Way, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Mikey Way.
Whenever and wherever are you, you do alive in me. Alive together as MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Thank you for the best healing, best helping, best influence. Thank you for being exist and making my life complete. I love you guys, so much. I love you no matter what.
I wish I would have had the chance to see your concert in Jakarta back on that Black Parrade days.
It's a total honor to me to be a part of your army, MCRmy.
Yogyakarta, March 25th.
With love, kisses, and tears,
Diantika Rindam Floranti.
Backsong : My Chemical Romance - Sleep
