In The Middle of Thinking (and Decided That My Head Isn't Really A Good Place for Thinking)

*BY THE WAY, pls ignore the last box!!! lawl :''D*

(image credits : 9gag)

So whats changed?
Hampir tidak ada. Langitnya tetap biru, dindingku tetap bisu, dan hati dia tetap beku. Justru saya kini berusaha ekstra keras agar tidak ada yang berubah. Saya terpaksa untuk membuktikan kebenaran dari inersia­—bahwa benda memiliki kecenderungan untuk mempertahankan keadaannya, menolak perubahan terhadap keadaan geraknya atau diamnya. Mempertahankan posisi semulanya. Satu hal yang tidak boleh terlupakan dari inersia adalah bahwa benda tegar selalu memiliki inersia lebih besar.
Saya harus membuktikan bahwa saya cukup tegar.

Did they ever really loved you?
Ya, Bisa jadi, Tidak. Pertanyaan ini mengingatkan saya pada game show televisi yang sempat terkenal tempo hari. Games di mana kita harus memberondong lawan bicara kita dengan begitu banyak pertanyaan, sementara mereka hanya menjawab dengan tiga kata tersebut. Setelah saya pikir, seperti itulah perasaan saya pada dia. Saya tidak pernah melontarkan pertanyaan untuk dia, dan dia tidak pernah menjawab apapun untuk saya. Tetapi saya punya jutaan pertanyaan dalam kepala yang selalu berakhir dengan "Ya, namun bisa jadi tidak."
Saya tidak pernah menyatakan apa-apa, dia tidak pernah menjawab apa-apa. Sejauh yang saya tahu, dia hanya menjawab "Iya" untuk ia. Sementara ia, saya rasa ia begitu menyukai keadaan "Bisa Jadi" saja. Wajar, sejauh ini dunia seakan berotasi mengelilinginya. Semoga saja ia sadar bahwa rotasi bumi sekalipun akan berhenti jika memang sudah waktunya.
Saya tidak tahu apakah ini pemikiran gegabah atau tidak, yang jelas, saya ingin keduanya menjawab "Tidak" untuk saya.

Has anyone ever really loved you?
... Jujur, setelah saya banyak menyelam dalam pikiran saya sendiri, pertanyaan ini adalah pertanyaan yang kerap muncul dalam benak saya. Mendapatkan pertanyaan ini saya justru ingin balik bertanya. Adakah?
Saya ini kelewat pesimistik, bahkan untuk diri saya sendiri.

Saya terbiasa menciptakan tanda tanya setelah menerima suatu fakta. Pada dasarnya, saya selalu membiasakan diri untuk berhenti sejenak ketika menyadari bahwa saya tengah berdiri pada sisi yang sama dengan orang lain. Ketika semua orang percaya bahwa suatu hal adalah kebenaran, saat itu pula saya meragu dan bertanya, apa iya?

Kadang, satu pertanyaan saja bisa sangat menggelitik dalam pikiran saya. Kini, saya mendapatkan tiga.

Saya ingin mengutuk diri saya.

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Relatable Mindset → Pertanyaan, Saya, Pikiran.
SO ITS CRYSTAL I'M NOT BITTER CAUSE I'M NEUTERED x"D
But those fanart (is it even counted as a fanart? or maybe cartoon then?), did really made me stop and think; and decided to write something about it.
I actually dunno where the hell this is started (and also, I don't really think this one is a relatable things), but let's just said that something unfortunate has happened. Somethings that I presume as inevitably since from the beginning, but still it would give you a bitter sting when its actually happened.

The last part caught me, tho. Has anyone out there ever really loved you? Maybe you're just unlovable.

Bisa jadi.

Xoxo,
K

Life Long and Prosper.

So, another birthday post appreciation. Well, it's midnight and it's my twentieth birthday, and all I did after all this years was joining another fandom...

...how productive.

ohgodtheimagessoprettyicanevenlol

Okay, serious part.
So, yes, self-birthday wishes for year ahead. I don't asked many, just be functional. You don't need to be happy, self. Damn it, you don't even need to be okay—just be friggin functional and do whatever you need to do. Just, accomplish something, do the right things, stay healthy and stuff.
And do something interesting if you have any chances. Even its you, but still, you can't please everyone every damn time, please do something for yourself at least once.

*captain kirk and doctor mccoy approves; lol*

Since its my birthday and I love mckirk to death, so I just gonna make them toast for me and hugged each other as my birthday present.

*bgm : Kangen Band - Terbang Bersamaku*

*WHAT???????*

Actually, January 20th is also Dr. Leonard H. McCoy and the late DeForest Kelley birthday, so, yippie! Happy birthday to you too, bby. Love you to the moon and back!!! 

 

 

DeForest Kelley should be turning 94 if he's still alive by now, it's a pity that I never had a chance to know him before he passed away. From what I know, from what he'd remembered for, he was a very, very gentle gentleman. A humble man and very dearly loved friend.

Happy birthday, Sir! I wish that I would have had the chance to meet you and let you know just how much your role in the Trek world has meant to all of trekkies.

For a great man he is, Rest in Peace. You have been always and shall be dearly missed.

*ugh how much nimoy missed him is killing me, just UGH*

May his memory Life Long and Prosper.

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SO telling me again why I'm turning my birthday appreciation post into something melodramatic about De Kelley? GOD HELP ME, i'm nearly in tears right now because of him ;A;

Gotta out by now, just hoping 2014 will be okay.

(ps  i wasted about 2 hours to made this post, JUST why...)

xoxo,

Karin.

Once Upon A Dream

Aku merasa tidak akan pernah ada Surakarta yang lama lagi.

Berbulan, bahkan bertahun yang lalu, perjalanan ke Surakarta tidak pernah seperti ini. Surakarta yang kuingat berbeda, meski jalan menuju kotanya tetap sama. Kendaraan yang kugunakan tiada berbeda, bahkan teman seperjalanan ku pun masih sama. Perjalananku pun disambut dengan wajah kota yang kukenal baik sejak lama. Setiap sudut kota bersahaja, jalanan yang ramai namun menyenangkan, pertokoan langganan yang masih setia menjajakan dagangannya. Surakarta tetap kota yang menyajikan beragam kenangan.

Adalah layang pikirku sudah jauh berbeda, jauh ke batas yang tidak pernah kuduga akan berlayar sampai sana. Kota ini lekat denganmu. Sekalipun memang tidak pernah ada dalam memoriku yang berlabel “Surakarta” dengan namamu. Tidak pernah ada kenanganku akanmu yang terjadi di sini, terlebih tak ada satu waktu kita berada di kota ini. Tapi, mau tidak mau, seluruh pikiranku akan melaju untukmu ketika aku menyusuri kembali setiap sudut kota ini. Hingga tidak ada lagi Surakarta yang kukenal dahulu.

Semua hilang, terkikis kenangan yang tidak pernah terjadi di antara kita.

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Relatable mindset → kota, kenangan, pikiran.

Awalnya cuma asal-asalan aja mikir waktu lagi perjalanan pulang dari Solo ke Yogya. Lalu kemudian tertarik untuk bikin relatable baru dari potongan-potongan kenangan(?) meskipun, kapan sih relatable gue gak dari kenangan? =_= /abaikan /orz

Well anyway, Happy Ied 1434H everyone! Minal Aidzin Walfaizin~ o:"D
(ps: image credit, not mine. All from google images)

xoxo,

Karin

A Letter for My Chemical Romance

Dear My 9 Years Fandom...

I still remember it like it was yesterday...

Helena was big hit on MTV. Gerard Way's long-black hair, the dancing female corps in her funeral. I was mesmerized. I love their music, I love their music video, I love their concept. The next day at school I got excited talking about the video with my best friend. I said "The vocalist IS awesome! I love him so much!"

Soon after, I heard much more about this band, MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. I got no internet connection back on the old days, so I was just following their news on TV or magazines. I consider myself as lucky by the time I found their another songs like I'm Not Okay, The Ghost of You. Added to my playlist, with no hesitation. This, gonna be my favorite band, said the 10 years old me.

Yes. I just an 10 years old girl by that days...

When I got accepted in Junior High School, they surprised me again. My Chemical Romance's back with Welcome To The Black Parade. It was total ALL KILL. It's everywhere, in every TV music's station, in every radio chart, and even in everyone's hums. And I am, of course, get crazy about it myself. I remember when I was rushing to go the music store near my house and grab the CD. Can't helped but play it all day long, all night long.

The way Gerard's saying "Your memory will carry on...", how Ray, Frank, Mikey, and Bob's play behind. Their music is brilliant. I can't help but addicted. Their song was a beautiful influence for a 13 years old teenage girl like me, every time I got bad day and found my self singing "They said all teenagers scare, the living shit out of me..."

I am healed. Their song healed me. I spent my youth with their songs.

In the middle of that year, they're coming to Jakarta, the capital city of my country, Indonesia. I remembered it was near the Ied that year and I still got few days of holidays left. I did really wanted to see the concert, to see my favorite band. But pity, I was so young back then. My mum told me that I am too young to go to see some concert like that and forbid me to go. I was so sad, but I made promise to myself that I will see their concert. I will see them live, with my eyes. Someday.

I was just a 13 years old girl that own the best band's influence.

I just sitting on my car while tweeting in the middle of my first semester of my eleventh grade when suddenly the radio's playing the newest single of them, Na Na Na. I found it kinda different from their songs, but it quite lovely and colorful. THEY'RE BACK! And I got excited once again. My Grandma bought me the newest album of them, Danger Days, The True Lives of The Fabulous Killjoys as my birthday present. I listen to it, watch the whole videos, and I go falling in love again. Party Poison, Kobra Kid, Jet Star, Fun Choul. They're never fail to surprised me. Save Yourself, I'll Hold Them Back, Summertime, S C A R E C R O W, The Only Hope for Me It's You. They're just beyond amazing.

9 years has just passed...

Now, I'm a college girl,  still holding they're total influence, heartbroken, crying, and suffering.

They decided to split...

I just on tears right now. I can't tell what's really on my mind after hearing the news. It was so fast. Until now, I just can't believe that this is really happening. Gerard did wrote a beautiful letter on his twitter account, but I can make my self reading those letter. I am so sad, my mind refuse to believe that the news is true.

Since I am bad with goodbyes. I refuse to let this be one. But I will leave you with one last thing- 
My Chemical Romance is done. But it can never die. It is alive in me, in the guys, and it is alive inside all of you. I always knew that, and I think you did too.
Because it is not a band- it is an idea.
Love,Gerard

Gerard Arthur Way, Frank Iero, Ray Toro, Mikey Way.

Whenever and wherever are you, you do alive in me. Alive together as MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE. Thank you for the best healing, best helping, best influence. Thank you for being exist and making my life complete. I love you guys, so  much. I love you no matter what.

I wish I would have had the chance to see your concert in Jakarta back on that Black Parrade days.

It's a total honor to me to be a part of your army, MCRmy.

Yogyakarta, March 25th. 
With love, kisses, and tears,
Diantika Rindam Floranti.

Backsong : My Chemical Romance - Sleep

Raining

"Its raining outside, tell me, how could I still staring patiently at the door while its so cold right here?"

"I wish you were see me inside the window, so I could left without knocking and blame it on you..."

ps : A months, remember?

(pps: image credits, not mine. All from google images)

xoxo,

k

House

“I want to go anywhere, get lost, as far as I can... with you...
Then I realize that what we need is a destination; a house.
By the time I realize, that's the time you left me in this empty road, with a thousands keys.
You told me that you will wait for me inside the house, when you never told me which house.
You left right away.

Yes, I try to find the house. But my minds keep bugging...
There's so many locked doors before I could got inside the house.
There's so many keys to match with the doors so it could be unlocked.
And you never help me to find the right key to open the door.
You never help me to get inside the house.”
 

I'm tired staring at the doors meanwhile what I need is getting inside the house....

But, actually, how to go inside the house when the track of finding the door―the track of finding you―have also disappeared?

Now I don't see the houses, I don't even see at the doors that I've been waiting to be unlocked. It all disappeared. I left alone in the middle of nowhere, blinded by my mind, lost in the empty road that I've choose to wait for someone who will bring me to the right house.
I don't see you anymore; and I feel so lost.

That was so fast, do I already clearly forgotten?
Or am I never existed in your mind?
I don't think you'll ever wanted to be with me.

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Relatable mindset → kunci, pintu, jalan, dan rumah.
Udah lama sebenernya pingin bikin analogi dari kode-kode ini, tapi nggak pernah sempet ;p dan kebetulan hujan minggu ini /halah/ bisa menciptakan kesyahduan sampe bisa menelurkan yang entah apalah ini sajak, roman, atau apa, short-fiction sih jelas bukan, haha.

(ps: image credits, not mine. All from google images)


xoxo,
K

Jalan

Pernahkah terpikir tentang ironi sebuah kenangan?
Yang tercipta hanya dalam jentikan jari, namun berbekas hingga hitungan revolusi bumi.
Begitu sedikit kenangan yang diciptakan, begitu sulit untuk dilupakan.

Dan, bukan,
Aku bukan tidak menemukan jalan kedepan. Hanya saja bergantung pada angan memang nyaman. Diluar dugaan, aku terus menemukan cara bagaimana menikmati sejuta tanda tanya akan sosokmu yang berlarian di kejauhan.

Seandainya kamu juga seperti aku, seandainya kamu juga menemukan jalan untuk memikirkanku.

Aku ingin mengenangmu dengan sabar, mengingatmu dengan debar.
Aku ingin memikirkanmu tanpa sedih yang gencar.
Dengan senyum yang terpancar, sekalipun kita berpencar.

Aku tidak ingin menjadi samar.

— Gejayan, Agustus, 25th 2012. 15:28. with a few additional.

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LOL, another paan-neh-gaje, entah sajak atau semacamnya. But damn, I'm not even good making a sajak tho, anggap saja ini tulisan sambil jalan.
Well, ini emang di buat dalam perjalanan pulang. Habis dengerin entah lagu apa, udah lumayan lama lah waktu perjalanan pulang di mobil dan waktu itu lagi ngilang. Baru sempet publish sekarang karena nge-gabut dan juga udah hampir seminggu ini ilang lagi. Meskipun theme nya cuma kenangan, dan nggak ada relatable lainnya, tapi yasudahlah. Toh a little memories won't bite.

So, have a nice day and long weekend that I couldn't get (again!) all!

(ps: image credits, not mine. All images from google images)





love,
K

Simple

You don't know how this simple things could put on a smile on my face....

#nowplaying Lana del Rey - Video Games

xoxo,
K☻

When It's Getting Cold, Remember...

Ia dan Dia sama-sama terbaring di sana.

Malam terlalu dingin untuk dilewatkan seorang diri, sehingga kedua tubuh mereka menjadi tunggal dalam pelukan, yang begitu sayang untuk dilepaskan. Mata mereka terpejam, mereka sama-sama diam. Sama-sama berpikir kemudian tenggelam.
Ada nyaman yang tak wajar dalam hati dia, sementara ada gelisah yang terlalu akrab di dalam diri ia.
Sudah terlalu lama mereka begini, tidak terikat tetapi tak pernah terlepas. Tidak membiarkan hati yang bicara, namun suara keduanya begitu nyala dalam berkata-kata. Ia dan Dia sama-sama menanti, tetapi tak pernah sehati.

Sampai suatu hari,  tiba saatnya ia melepaskan semua pelukan, sementara dia berusaha untuk tak lagi mencari dekapan.

Mereka kedinginan.

 

━ Yogyakarta, 19.10.2012 / 11:18


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Relatable Mindset ━> Diam, Dingin, Ikatan.
Niatnya bukan ngegalau, tapi bikin mini-fanfic. Kenapa jadinya bikin mini-orific bin setengah curcol gini? Mana bikinnya panas-panas gini pula, apanya yang kedinginan =_=
btw, have a nice weekend, everyone!
(ps: image credits, not mine. All images from google images)
 
xoxo,
k

Wae Ireon Nae Mameul Ajik Molla?

2NE1 - I Love You

Romanized Lyric

[CL] When you feel like there’s no way out

Love is the only way

[Minzy] Geudae nayegeman jarhejwoyo

Hangsang nayegema usojwoyo

[CL] I said ooh~ jiltuhage haji mayo

Ooh jipchaghage haji mayo

[Minzy] Ajik nan sarangi duryeowoyo

Ireon naege mideum-eul jwobwayo

[CL] I said ooh jiltuhage haji mayo

Ooh jipchaghage haji mayo

[Bom] I love you (I love u) uh uh uhu…

I love you (I love u) uh uh uhu…

[Dara] Haru jongil geudae moseup jakku tteo-olla

Onjongil olliji ahneun jeonhwagiman tto jyeodabwa

[Minzy] Wae ireon nae mameul ajik molla

Nan neoui ma-eumeul ajik jal molla

[Dara] Neoui saengage bamen jamdo mut iruda

Dalbiche geudaereul tteo-ollamyeo nae mam gubaekhaebwa

[CL] Wae ireon nae mameul ajik molla

Nan neoui maeumeul ajik jal molla Look at me now

[Bom] Nae mameul barabwayo

Ireohke aetaneunde

Jigeum nal jabajwoyo

Nutgi jeone eh eheheh

[Dara] I love you (I love u) uh uh uhu…

I love you (I love u) uh uh uhu…

[CL] Mamchuji mayo sarang nurae

Matjin neol wihae bulleojulge Everyday

I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Minzy] Meomchuji mayo sarangui Dance

I-bameul geudaewa bonaego shipeundae

I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

I say yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Bom] Nae mameul barabwayo

Ireokhe aetaneunde

[CL] Jigeum nal jabajwoyo

Nutgi jeone eh eheheh

[Bom] We can’t go wrong,

[Dara] Bring it back

[Bom] Milgo danggijineun malajwoyo

Uri jogeumman soljikhaejweoyo

[Minzy] I said ooh jiltuhage haji mayo

Ooh jipchaghage haji mayo

[Dara] Odiseo mu-eol halkke gong-geumhaeyo

Hokshi ireon naega jwichanhnayo?

[CL] I said ooh jiltuhage haji mayo

Ooh jiltuhage haji mayo

[CL] I love you everyday

Don’t get away

Take me away

I love you everyday

In everyway

Neol saranghae

[Minzy] Wae ireon nae mameul ajik molla

Nan neoui maeumeul ajik jal molla

[Bom] I love you everyday

Don’t get away

Take me away

I love you everyday

In everyway

Neol saranghae

[CL] Wae ireon nae mameul ajik molla

Nan neoui maeumeul ajik jal molla

Translation Credits: pop!gasa 

Romanizations by: kpoplyrics.net

On my mind

So it's been awhile. I know this post contains too much chessy and blah. But yea, this is me now.
I should've been searching for anything related with my Agrarian Law task, but I end up on this site. Just, need to spill out what's on my mind lately...

It's just amazing how this quote really works... lol~
Have a nice day♥

and fight much for your task, if you read this.



(ps: image credits, not mine. All images from google images)

 xoxo,
k