Trust

Nick Fury: [holds a photo of Alexander Pierce] This man declined the Nobel Peace Prize. He said that peace is not an achievement, but a responsibility. It's stuff like this that gives me trust issues. — Samuel L. Jackson as Nick Fury in Captain America : The Winter Soldier

Nick Fury does have his point.
And I'm here to following orders, Sir. Let's just not trust...

Keeping My Sanity

I'm actually don't know what to write, but it feels like I need to do it. Well, it keeps my sanity stay, though. Other than fandom-ing (is it really a word, lmao), this is things that keep me in one piece, really.

So, Hello!

How's life? Nah, its all fine, just fine. Not a perfectly smooth one neither a total mess, but at least nothing's goes wrong by the time I'm writing this. Except for I'm now in my mid-term week and so friggin many this semester's subjects haunted me into some exhausted point, gotta say. So, merely saying, that I'm actually need to study for this monday test, but I'm too unmotivated to do such a thing—duh. Not to mention that this fourth semester's materials is a total pain in the ass, it wore my brains out dude. God, I hate law schools...

Anyway, I'm now officially a part of journalism organization in my university level, I've been accepted in the R&D department. Its actually have been long way and long story before I get officially inaugurated. Many tasks need to be handled simultaneously with my faculty things. Not really an easy one, tho. (especially for me, the one who never did many things too handle at the same time and socially retarded). But, hey, at least I'm accomplishing something in here.

Fandom things? Hmm, I'm actually kinda inactive this past few weeks. The things that keeping me in touch with my fandom is phone-tumblring and reading some fics, its all happened again after I've done my tasks, which is merely this past few days (and its friggin corrupted by this on-going mid-term week, ugh). I've been craving for continuing watching Star Trek TOS, Almost Human, or Agent's of S.H.I.E.L.D, but I don't really got a time TT_TT  but Thank God, I still got a chance to watch Captain America : The Winter Soldier's premier at my local cinema. I think I'm gonna write some review about it later, but, need to say this movie is a TRULY good stuff. Action-packed and very unpredictable plot. Love it!

So basically this post just me being grouchy about things happened recently. But the shits will stop, eventually. And after this mid-term done, I'm going to Bali for such an escape from my very exhausting reality. So excited and looking forward for some sun, beaches, and summer breeze there, hopefully its turn out into a good and relaxing one!

Leonard McCoy said once, a little suffering is good for soul. So be it.
I need to passed all this suffer to achieved the good things, yo.


(((('SCUSE ME, but WHY you need to relate every SINGLE thing with Star Trek or McKirk, self??))))

Sorry, but, I'm not sorry. 

Fiiiigght~~ ( ‾▿‾)9
K♥

Infinito

Betapa tidak akan menguji ketabahan, jika sesuatu yang sudah seolah-olah seperti cinta masih juga tidak memberi jaminan kebahagiaan?

 ―Seno Gumira Ajidarma, dalam Linguae

Pertanyaannya sekarang mungkin sesimpel ketabahan seperti apa yang diharapkan dari cinta? Apakah akhir yang bahagia? Ataukah sekadar menikmati hadirnya, lantas bersyukur atasnya?

Cinta itu sederhana, demikian pula dengan kebahagiaan. Perkara berbahagia itu sederhana, itu kata mereka yang cukup bijak untuk berpikir layaknya filsuf kawakan. Tetapi kenyataannya kehidupan tidak sesederhana apa yang dikira, cinta dan bahagia tidak sesederhana stigma yang tertanam dalam kata.

Bagi saya, cinta dan bahagia itu sakral. Tanpa maksud meniadakan apresiasi terhadapnya, namun kenapa kita harus mengerucutkan sesuatu yang besar maknanya?

Dan, jika saya boleh jujur, tanpa jaminan kebahagiaan itu sekalipun, saya tetap tabah. Ketabahan saya tidak terkait dengan akhir yang bahagia, atau pun menemukan pemikiran cukup puas dengan kehadirannya. Ketabahan saya ini sederhana, sesederhana berharap untuk dapat menghadapi kenyataan dan mencari titik temu antara Saya, Kamu, dan Hal-hal yang belum selesai di antara kita.

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Relatable mindset → Sederhana, Cinta, Bahagia.

HARUSNYA SIH HARUSNYA, ini sekarang ngerjain HKD atau minimal belajar karena masih dalam lingkup UAS, bukan ala-ala bikin relatable-blah-blah gini, pffttt.

Well, have a good fight for those who still have test and happy holiday for those who already passed the final week.

Smooch,

K♥

Gone (Not Around Any Longer)

 Because you were here and not anymore.
...I can't breathe.

It's okay, i'm just suffocating to death anyway. LOL I'm perfectly fine with this.

SISTAR 19's newest comeback is epic, everyone! Although Bora's part is too short, but the song, background music, dance, is perfectly perfect! Lol. Please do support their comeback ^^

xoxo,
k

Raining

"Its raining outside, tell me, how could I still staring patiently at the door while its so cold right here?"

"I wish you were see me inside the window, so I could left without knocking and blame it on you..."

ps : A months, remember?

(pps: image credits, not mine. All from google images)

xoxo,

k

House

“I want to go anywhere, get lost, as far as I can... with you...
Then I realize that what we need is a destination; a house.
By the time I realize, that's the time you left me in this empty road, with a thousands keys.
You told me that you will wait for me inside the house, when you never told me which house.
You left right away.

Yes, I try to find the house. But my minds keep bugging...
There's so many locked doors before I could got inside the house.
There's so many keys to match with the doors so it could be unlocked.
And you never help me to find the right key to open the door.
You never help me to get inside the house.”
 

I'm tired staring at the doors meanwhile what I need is getting inside the house....

But, actually, how to go inside the house when the track of finding the door―the track of finding you―have also disappeared?

Now I don't see the houses, I don't even see at the doors that I've been waiting to be unlocked. It all disappeared. I left alone in the middle of nowhere, blinded by my mind, lost in the empty road that I've choose to wait for someone who will bring me to the right house.
I don't see you anymore; and I feel so lost.

That was so fast, do I already clearly forgotten?
Or am I never existed in your mind?
I don't think you'll ever wanted to be with me.

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Relatable mindset → kunci, pintu, jalan, dan rumah.
Udah lama sebenernya pingin bikin analogi dari kode-kode ini, tapi nggak pernah sempet ;p dan kebetulan hujan minggu ini /halah/ bisa menciptakan kesyahduan sampe bisa menelurkan yang entah apalah ini sajak, roman, atau apa, short-fiction sih jelas bukan, haha.

(ps: image credits, not mine. All from google images)


xoxo,
K

On my mind

So it's been awhile. I know this post contains too much chessy and blah. But yea, this is me now.
I should've been searching for anything related with my Agrarian Law task, but I end up on this site. Just, need to spill out what's on my mind lately...

It's just amazing how this quote really works... lol~
Have a nice day♥

and fight much for your task, if you read this.



(ps: image credits, not mine. All images from google images)

 xoxo,
k